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Subject:This is acctuly sad.
Time:08:45 pm
Current Mood:coldcold
[ x] I am shorter than 5'4".
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[X] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I had braces.
[x ] I wear glasses.
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles.

[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[x ] I've run away from home.
[ x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ x] I've lost a child.

[X] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[X] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[] I've glued my hand to something
[X] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my trousers rip in public.

[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x ] I miss someone right now.
[x ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

[x ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[x ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.

[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[X] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[] I've cheated while playing a game.
[] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.

[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[X] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[X] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[X] I *have* anorexic or bulimic *tendencies* or have EDNOS*tendencies*.
[ x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[X] I've woken up crying.
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Current Location:United States, Florida, Naples
Subject:I keep fighting
Time:06:31 pm
Current Mood:crappycrappy
With my boyfriend, Lloyd. I hate it so much, I love him too much to let this go on. He just doesn't understand me. I do not choose to have this eating disorder, but I do. He yells at me all the time for it. It hurts so much, I would love to be able to eat what he eats. Worst part of it all, is he told his best friend Ross. I have lost all my trust in him. Ross is my best friends boyfriend, Ross does not believe in secrets[lame excuse for gossiping and being nosey] so he will tell Jordan, who doesn't need an excuse to tell everyone under the sun, so what is going to happen is, instead of celibrating my 18th birthday with my friends, i will be in a room at David Lurance singing love songs, saying we are all beautiful. Fuck this.
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Current Location:United States, Florida, Naples
Subject:I failed.
Time:11:46 pm
Current Mood:crushedcrushed
So today was the first day of my fast, I did so very well, until my sister came over, and I haven't seen her in a while, so I ate, not too much, but too much! I don't know what to do...I feel horrible. I need a friend in this, one that can help me and  vice versa.
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Current Music:Elliott Smith, I didn't understand
Current Location:United States, Florida, Naples
Subject:I need afriend in this....
Time:12:43 pm
Current Mood:guiltyguilty
You know just to help me stay strong, and make sure I am not killing myself. Maybe just someone to help me stay accountable, and vice versa..
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